We are beat...

Baileyanne has been putting us through the ringer the past few weeks and we are beat! She has had a REALLY hard time obeying. She wants to do what she wants to do and like any other child, she throws a fit when she doesn't get her way. She is 7 1/2 years old and I am tired of her fits. I am tired of her teacher calling me. I am tired of people staring. I am tired of wanting her to be like the "other" children. I am tired of her chewing on her socks and having to buy new ones. (this is a habit that she started about a month ago and we are having a hard time getting her to stop) I am just plain tired. EXHAUSTED to be more honest. I don't think that I am cut out to be a mother of an Autistic child. I am just plain beat.
The 2nd grade classes are doing a Valentine's Day program on Friday and her teacher wants everything in this world for Baileyanne to be a part of things though she is not cooperating. She won't stand with the other kids. She won't listen. She won't obey. They have tried many times to get her to be a "part" of this show though she is just not able. Physically and emotionally, she is not able. They have tried and I KNOW they have, though when her teacher comes up to me in carpool lane two days in a row and tells me that it's just not working, and that she can't be part of the program, you can't help but be hurt. It is SO hard hearing those words that your child can't be "part" of something because of her delays or whatever it may be. I HATE it. With the pregnancy hormones and the fact that I am so beat, I lost it. I could go on and on about how I HATE that she is different and that I don't "like" her right now though that would be throwing me a pity party and I am not going to do that. PLEASE pray for us. Baileyanne is exhausting Dan and I's relationship. Every last ounce of energy has gone into that child the past few weeks and we are both beat. PLEASE pray for our marriage and for Baileyanne. Please pray for my strength and for my patience. I know that God has plans... though right now we are beat.